Hi to all,

I haven't done anything to this for a while. Easter holiday, however, gives me time to give you all this small piece of news.

I will catch up with all deviations, just don't know when. Same for messages, comments, etc...

One day I might be able to actually upload things... funky times!

As to the rest of it, I've moved out of home and am currently studying Uni full time and working casual otherwise. My time is divided between Uni, work and sleep. Unless of course you count the nights out on the town, where sleep is not accessible at all, but much dancing and acting like a lunatic is

I have four subjects, next semester I shall have five. Holding it all together is proving interesting hehe. I love my family and friends, they are my everything, my proof that without them I would be but a husk of who I am. Thank you for contributing . I hope I can contribute too!

And to all of my friends who have said that I am strange, but that's okay, because it is a good kind of strange.... Thank you very, very much, it's made my day over and over again...

Maybe there's a point that so many people have said it in the past week, month...

Much love to all!

~Karah

P.S, Maree is my little sister Also, happy 19th to Sean and Mickee!

It's strange, growing up. Everything continually changes and more than once I've wanted to go back to the days where I used to escape from home and into trees with my music, pen, paper and imagination.

Anyway, comments from people I love and self-realisation from those words have made me understand that a lot of my problems that I thought were dealt with are really only making me worse.

Psychologically speaking of course

I was watching a documentary this morning, entitled Forgiving Dr Mengele. In case you didn't know, Dr Mengele was the most involved German doctor in genetic experimentation during Hitler's attempt at genocide. He performed most of these experiments on human guinea pigs, twin Jew children at a concentration camp at Auschwitz in Germany during the early 1940's. One of the survivor's, Eva Kor is amazing in that she has taken it upon herself to forgive all of those who wronged her, her twin and her people. Her sister died from kidney failure from one of the injections and she still has the capacity to forgive, but not forget.

I mean hell, if she can do it, why can't I? I didn't go through anything as remotely horrific as her experiences, a bad childhood is easy to blame for dysfunctionality but not any more. If she can forgive Mengele and the SS, then I can certainly forgive my mother, father and step father.

Hehe, I'm sure it sounds like a lot of tosh to you lot but it means quite a bit to me. I don't have to live in fear, anger or contempt any more. It's about letting oneself heal. I want to heal myself, so therefore I can.

In regards to strength, I've found myself to be a bit of a pushover and bend over easily to please others, because it makes them happy. To be myself, I can't let that happen any more. The plan is not outright defiance, more a quiet determination. It's the establishment of me as an individual with my own life, goals and choices. No more following anyone, but no more discounting advice from my friends who are just trying to help me.

Finally, pursuit of dreams. I've been treated with incredulity as to my choice of career. I don't care. I want to teach art and I want to teach it to secondary students. My goal is to finish my degree, complete my diploma and possibly do honours. The reason for honours, is that if I want to, I can go back and study for free, if I get decent marks in honours of course . Anyway, next step is to find a country town to teach in for three years because in Australia, a teacher has to, at any one point, teach three years in the country. This will hopefully give me experience as well as a chance to get out and away from everything I know, a test if you will. Then I want to teach overseas, definitely in England, but I'm not sure if that's where I want to go first. I know there's not a cement way there but I want to keep moving, I want to travel, I want to live my life . And hell, I will!

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone in my life who has supported me thus far and I am certain will support me in the future, pull me up by the bootstraps if I slide and give me heaps of hugs. I love you all, I love the happiness I get from spending time with you and I love that you can mean so much to me without even trying, because you like me for me. I love you for you, never forget it

I have so many things to do, yet I've been procrastinating actually doing them. It's not that healthy and it causes more stress but unless I'm in a state, I cannot seem to produce decent work.

So, I have an essay to write and three projects to finish. Wish me luck! I found a quiz on a friend's myspace page so I'm going to fill it in

Check the BANDS YOU'VE HEARD OF
Don't lie, cause it will make you look like a fake poser whore if you mark them all...


ALTERNATIVE:
[x] Breaking Benjamin
[ ] Paramore
[x] Panic! At The Disco
[x] Linkin Park
[ ] The Academy Is...
[x] Coldplay
[x] Three Days Grace
[x] Yellowcard
[x] 30 Seconds to Mars
[ ] Chevelle
TOTAL SO FAR = 7

COUNTRY:
[ ] Rascal Flatts
[ ] Carrie Underwood
[x] Leanne Rhymes
[ ] Garth Brooks
[x] Dixie Chicks
[ ] Kenny Chesney
[ ] Tim McGraw
[x] Faith Hill
[x] Shania Twain
[x] Johnny Cash

TOTAL SO FAR = 12

EMO:
[ ] Hawthorne Heights
[ ] Chiodos
[ ] Forgive Durden
[ ] Amber Pacific
[ ] The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
[ ] From First to Last
[ ] Senses Fail
[ ] Underoath
[ ] Something Corporate
[ ] Hit The Lights
[ ] Dear Whoever

TOTAL SO FAR = 12

INDIE:
[ ] The Hush Sound
[ ] Eisley
[ ] Death Cab for Cutie
[x] Dashboard Confessional
[x] The Killers
[x] Yeah Yeah Yeahs
[x] Hot Hot Heat
[x] Gym Class Heroes
[x] Franz Ferdinand
[ ] Modest Mouse

TOTAL SO FAR = 18

METAL:
[x] Slipknot
[x] System of a Down
[x] Disturbed
[x] Metallica
[x] Guns n' Roses
[x] Lamb of God
[ ] Slayer
[x] Hatebreed
[ ] Killswitch Engage

TOTAL SO FAR =25

POP:
[x] Teddy Geiger
[x] Ashlee Simpson
[x] Kelly Clarkson
[x] Jesse McCartney
[x] Avril Lavigne
[x] Pink
[x] The Veronicas
[x] Daniel Powter
[x] James Blunt
[x] Natasha Bedingfield
[ ] Ryan Cabrera

TOTAL SO FAR = 35

POWERPOP/PUNK:
[x] Hellogoodbye
[ ] Cute is What We Aim for
[ ] Cartel
[ ] The Click Five
[x] Fall Out Boy
[x] Rage Against the machine
[x] Good Charlotte
[x] Bowling for Soup
[ ] Relient K
[ ] Anti - Flag
[x] Simple Plan

TOTAL SO FAR= 41

RAP:
[x] Ying Yang Twins
[ ] T.I.
[ ] Paul Wall
[x] 2pac
[x] Jamie Foxx
[x] Ludacris
[x] Lil' Jon
[x] Outkast
[x] 50 Cent
[x] Kanye West
[x] Notorious B.I.G
[ ] Young Jeezy

TOTAL SO FAR = 50 My brother likes rap.

SKA:
[ ] Reel Big Fish
[ ] The Specials
[] Mad Caddies
[] Rancid
[] The Aquabats
[ ] Sublime
[x] No Doubt
[] Madness
[ ] Operation Ivy
[x]Bob Marley

TOTAL SO FAR= 52

ROCK:
[ ] Taking Back Sunday
[x] All American Rejects
[ ] Motion City Soundtrack
[ ] Avenged Sevenfold
[ ] Angels and Airwaves
[x] Evanescence
[x] My Chemical Romance
[ ] Drowning Pool
[x] GreenDay
[x] Blink 182
[ ] Madina Lake

TOTAL SO FAR = 57

CLASSIC ROCK:
[x] The Beatles
[x] Led Zeppelin
[x] The Rolling Stones
[x] The Cure
[x] The Who
[x] Pink Floyd
[x] Jimi Hendrix
[x] Queen
[x] Van Halen
[ ] Poison
[x] AC/DC

TOTAL SO FAR= 67

multiply your answer by 2
then repost with: I am 134% obsessed with music.

By the way people, this is a small representation of the music out there. As we all know, there are many more. If you can think of a band not listed here, could you please list it for me? Just your favourites ^^

Hey all,


How is everyone? I'd love to know. I've been aware of it all along but it seems more prominent to me at the moment the fact that with Uni and work taking up most of my time, I don't get to see my friends. Some I haven't seen or talked to for months. It's rather sobering.

Anyway, back to what inspired this update. I was brushing my teeth and trying to talk to my brother in the bathroom and it reminds me of the time my sister and I tried to have a conversation while brushing our teeth. It's quite hilarious, I strongly urge you to do it, just don't choke!

Oh, also, I've gotten my results back for everything. For my essay, I got 67.5%, which is a Credit. I hope to do better with the next one that's due in three weeks. For Jewellery, I earned 42/50, which is a Distinction, so I'm rather happy about that. The next project worries me though because it's collaborative and we haven't come up with anything yet. Sculpture was 33/50, a Credit. Not so happy. Fortunately, while I'm still yet to get an explanation from my teacher about what I did so wrong, (I still don't know), our collaborative group has come up with a really interesting idea so I'm hopeful I can pull up my marks. Creating the image, I got 23/30, which is a Distinction. I'm glad though that I got my results back, because it shows where I've got to improve to get to where I want to be.

Wow, that was long, sorry about that. I've got half an hour 'til I have to leave for work. My hair is a mess and I haven't got shoes on yet . We're getting in a new load of staff, all young newbies in the next couple of weeks and my brother happens to be one of them. Also, Dairy has said they'd love to have me, but Service, (where I've been the last almost three years), have said they'd like to keep me too. It makes me rather nervous actually because loyalties are mixed.

I think that's about it at the moment. Oh, aside from the fact that I like a cutie at work. I'm honestly not expecting that to go anywhere though, because, plain and simple, something always goes wrong . Ah well, maybe someday. Tell me what's going on with you!

24 minutes 'til departure. Wish me luck!

Much love

~Karah

My back doesn't like me lately, it feels like I've got kinks everywhere.

I have a thousand word assignment due in a week.

My first driving lesson is this Thursday. Wish me luck and I won't try to run over any pedestrians... *shifty eyes*

I start in Dairy at work on Saturday.

The aim of tomorrow in sculpture is to figure out how to make a smaller version of the second Victoria Bridge that connected Brisbane.

I've yet to come up with a decent idea for creating the image.

The only thing that stopped me from nodding off entirely this morning in my lecture was that the lecturer had made a word error.

My tutor doesn't read drafts... blast it!

Don't go near my bedroom, it's an absolute pigsty, the pigs would be overjoyed if they had my room for home.

My marigold flowered! The snapdragons aren't that far off either. I'm so excited.

I paid for camp today. I hope it's worth it!

I've run out of things to talk about at the moment. That's my update. Tell me yours ^^ Dare you!